THE MARRIAGE.

I had been for my cousin’s marriage. That’s where I got this thought.Marriage. How awesome does it looks? Two souls, who love each other, getting into a bond that lasts forever. Every girl wants a handsome hunk to love her, protect her, shop with her, and take care of her. Similarly, every guy wants a beautiful princess, to love him, take care of him, listen to his problems, be there with him during his tough times, and make love to him. Yeah, guys always consider making love as a top priority. Guys will always be guys. Chuck it. But the most important thing, we do need someone to complete us, don't we? 

No matter, how much you avoid marriage, you would get the urge to marry at some point of time in your life. I, never in my life, thought about marriage. I date, love, and then the love fades away eventually. And then, I break up. Relationships are more casual these days, and not serious, with a few exceptions. 

I love dating and what follows, but once the girl starts talking about marriage, I go away from her. Neither do I give fake hopes of marriage. I have always kept it clear with my girls, except my first and second girlfriend. I was a kid then. We all expect too much out of our first relationship, don’t we? 

I have always been against marriage. I never wanted to get married. I don't understand how people can be with one person throughout their whole life. Don't they get bugged looking at the same face everyday? Don't they get bugged listening to the same voice everyday? I don't think I would be able to survive with one person forever. It's normal, I suppose. Yeah, I might seem like a heartless jerk to a lot of people, but then, it’s better than screwing someone’s life. I would prefer being a bachelor than getting married and cheating on my wife.

Look at the current scenario, and you’d find more divorce petitions than marriages. But, it’s better not to get married rather than getting married just to get divorced later. Looking at most of the recently married couples around me, I am afraid of marriage. Not like I want to get married. Is it normal to get the I-wouldn’t-marry-anyone feeling, or it’s just me?

AAAAAAH! WAIT.

Has Marriage lost it’s importance today? Is it all about relationships and physical contacts today? The Generation has changed. We live in a world where people are afraid of commitment. Unlike the good old days, the problem today is we have a lot of options. They never had any option. They would love one person to the core. They would sacrifice and adjust to any level to just be with that person. Once they set their minds on one person, there wasn't anyone else who could lure them with their charm or beauty. Nothing else mattered.

But today, relationships are more casual, and people are treated as objects. We want better. No matter, how hot our girlfriend is, there’s always a girl who would be hotter than her. And we always tend to move towards that girl. It’s because, we are not in love. We assume that we are in love. We pretend to be in love. We make ourselves as well as our partner believe that we are in love, but the fact is, we are just in a relationship devoid of love.

Lust has taken over the feeling of love. We often look at the couples around, and think, that we need someone to love. Peer pressure is one of the main reasons for the wrong relationships. Stop fooling around yourself and people that you are in love. When you are sure of your feelings for the person, only then, go ahead, and ask her out. If you have the slightest of doubt, better stay away. Don’t take any decision in haste. Let it be the way it is. If it’s meant to be, it will be. Moreover, don’t date someone just because you have no one else to date. That’s mean. That’s wrong. And that’s the worst you can ever do to anyone. Because when you’re dating someone, just because you’ve no one else to date, you are treating that person as an option.

Date someone only when are sure of your feelings for that person. Commitment isn’t easy. But, if you want to get committed, give your best. Love her, like no one’s ever loved anyone. Love her, like she was the only thing you’d been waiting for. Treat her like a princess. Because she deserves it. Respect her, like you respect your mother. And that’s when you’d realize, your life is complete. 

As I said before, there’s always that girl who might be hotter than her, but when you’d be in love with her, no one else would matter. Because you have already fallen for her. And you can’t fall again. Love happens once. Only once. Rest of it is just an illusion. That’s when you say it to yourself, that I want to get married. If it’s not forever, it’s not love. Love is about finding the one person who makes your heart complete. Who makes you a better person than you ever dreamed you could be. Its about looking in the eyes of your wife and knowing all the way to your bones that she's simply the best person you've ever known.

CONFESSIONS OF A DRUNK ASS.

The story is fictional. And I request the smokers and drinkers to quit the same for that someone. May you find that someone soon.

Outside the pub, I stood amongst the crowd near the 'pan ka galla'. I was so drunk that I couldn't even stand still, as I asked the panwala for a cigarette. My friends had already left, and I was all alone standing amidst the crowd. 

I took a deep drag and blew a smoke, which increased my intoxication, and I felt really high. As I took another drag, I didn't notice that there were girls passing by me, and in blew it on them by mistake. I was too drunk to even realize that.

And 'Chhaaat'. The next moment, my left cheek was red as I was slapped hard by one of the two girls who were passing by. It took me a minute to realize that I had been slapped.

"Brats like you just spend their father's hard earned money on useless things like cigarettes and drinks. Had you been someone as middle class as me, you'd have realized the worth of those papers you just changed for the cigarette. And look before you smoke." She said fuming in anger.

I couldn't even take half of what she said. She was so beautiful that I was instantly lost in her deep black eyes that sparkled as the bright sun rays fell on them. Her fair skin and long and silky brownish hair made her appearance gorgeous, and I was bewitched by her. 

Although, I had been a chain smoker, I never smoked when non smokers were around me. And I never smoked when girls or kids would be around. I respected people who didn't smoke. I always kept that in mind, but at that moment, I was too intoxicated to know anything. And the girl who just slapped me? I had fallen for her. I had just heard about love at first sight, but I realized what it is then.

I knew I had to apologize, but words seem to betray me and nothing came out of my mouth as I stood gaping her.

My silence added on to her frustration and she seemed angrier. Girls look beautiful when they're angry, and she looked beautiful indeed. Not any less than Deepika Padukone. 

"Speechless? What else can I expect from guys like you who waste their life drinking and smoking like this?" She said, making me feel guilty.

I had tried quitting alcohol and drinks a million times, but I had been unable to. The numerous promises I made to my ex-girlfriends, crush, best friends and others were indeed broken. I always respected promises and kept them except for the ones involving cigarette and alcohol. I don't know why I could never keep such promises. But this slap was hard enough to etch it on my brain that I had to quit. Especially, if I expected this girl to love me back. Wait. Who am I kidding? I don't even know her name.

"So, you can't even speak? Are you dumb? Or you don't have the courtesy to apologize?" She said as her friend consistently asked her to leave the place.

"I love you" I replied smiling. Drunk me. Stupid me.

Chhaaat...Yet again my cheek was red, probably her the red marks of her fingers imprinted on my face.

'That's all I can expect from losers like you' she said and walked off.

As she walked off, I held my cheek, and kept looking at her.

I don't know if I'll ever meet her again, but for the sake of my love for her, I promise to quit drinking and smoking.

Every person has a role to play in your life. That person might come in your life for a minute, an hour, a day, a month or maybe a lifetime, but the role might be very important. 

EVEN THE SUPREME COURT CAN'T STOP ME FROM LOVING YOU.

A story of a couple who fall in love, date each other and turn out to be criminal one fine day for no fault of theirs. 

Ah, you might be wondering who I am? Well, I am Rounak. As a kid, I didn't realize why I never liked girls as much I liked the guys. And I never spent too much of time pondering upon the same for I bonded up well with girls in spite of not having any feelings for them. Back in 2005, having a girlfriend was in vogue, but I was never interested in one. Somehow, girls never attracted me. My friends would keep talking about how they find Alisha or Nikita hot. How they had a crush on Shriya or Sanmathi, but I would always keep quite. I thought it is always better to stay shut than being the odd one out. 

Years passed, and I grew up. Quite a lot, and it was only when I was in the first year of my MBBS, I realized that I was a lot different from others. In a conservative country like India, where even being with a girl is looked upon as a crime at times, I knew even the mere thought of being with the person of the same gender was scary. But, I knew that I had been born like this, and that person sitting up there had his own reason for making me the way I am. 

There were times when my friends would tease me, call me GAY and laugh at me. I wish they understood the fact that I am actually a GAY, and how much it hurts when they mock at me for being the same. I know, they always considered us downtrodden and unworthy of being with STRAIGHT people like them. But is it really my mistake that I am not one amongst them and out of the minuscule population who belong to the LGBT community. 

And in such a country, I fell for a GUY. Although I had a crush on quite a lot of guys back in my school, I never mentioned it to anyone as I was bound to keep it to myself. I couldn't share it with anyone. But this time, it was a lot different. I had come to a conclusion, it was love. Well, it was LOVE. But I knew the consequences of asking him out. I didn't had any expectations from him for I didn't know of his sexual preferences. 

Lucky as I was, in such a big city( Delhi) of such a large country ( India), the guy I fell for turned out to be the one belonging to that minuscule population of our country I belong to. One drunk night, he asked me out, and there was no bound to my happiness. For a minute, I thought it was a dream, but it was true. The love of my life asked me out. The year was 2009. The year in which Section 377 was decriminalized by the Delhi High court, and people like me were relieved. We had the liberty to be with whomsoever we want and a person of any gender. 

We started dating, and today, it's been four years, and I still love him the way I did then. It was only two days back, when the Supreme Court passed the verdict criminalising Section 377 of the IPC, we turned out to be criminals. You have no clue how scary it is for us, when one fine day we wake up to find that we are criminals and not law abiding citizens any more. But who cares? If loving the person of the same gender as that of mine is a crime, I am a criminal, and I wish to be one forever. My love for him shall stay above law. My love for him will be till my last breath.

In a country like India where our constitution guarantees us liberty and equality, why do people discriminate us?Leave people, even the Law seem to be against us. Even we are humans. Even we have feelings. And even we desire to love and are deserved to be loved. So what if we were born with emotions different from that of yours? Why is your love treated as LOVE, and ours as SIN? Remember, in the end it's always love that wins. 


For people who don't know what Section 377 is : 377. Unnatural offences: Whoever voluntarily has carnal intercourse against the order of nature with any man, woman or animal, shall be punished with imprisonment for life, or with imprisonment of either description for term which may extend to ten years, and shall also be liable to fine.

Well, they call it unnatural? If people are bound to breathe to their mouth due to the failure of their nose to breathe, would they call it unnatural? Would it be a crime? Think about it. So is it with people like us. 

- Rounak Nayak. 

 

P.S. I am straight, but I would fight for the rights of my brothers and sisters who've been deprived of their liberty. You should, too. 

SAD BEAUTY.

She looked beautiful in those nerdy glasses. Her ebony black eyes sparkled behind the glasses. I observed them closely and found them wet. Sometimes, things are not what they appear to be like. Although her eyes looked beautiful, I realized her mascara had been smudged due to the tears, and she wore the glasses only to hide the tears. 

He hid her pain with those glasses and the fake yet beautiful smile. Sometimes, faking a smile and intending to make others happy make you happy. She had come to believe she was happy by faking the happiness. She was happy, indeed.

And then, she met me. 

Her sorrows are now, mine, and my joy hers. Together, we complete each other.

MAA

As I stood at the railway station awaiting my train, a guy who appeared little elder to me was shouting at his mother openly at the station, in front of all the people around. He didn't think twice before humiliating her in public. I felt like bashing him up right there, but who am I? I controlled my anger. He insulted her over a trivial issue of receiving his call when he had been to the toilet. 

I wondered what the world is coming up to. She's the same woman whose hand he held in order to walk when he was a kid. He walked away. As she struggled with the heavy bag, I helped her carry it to her compartment. 

Finally, my train arrived. I boarded my train, trying to get over that incident and regain my excitement about going to Daman. 

I found my berth, and a family sitting opposite my berth with whom I was supposed to share my next 24 hours. They were about to sleep. The kid was lying down on the middle berth. I arranged my bedsheet, and sat over it, replying to the messages I had received.

Just then, the lady asked her husband to get the blankets. Her kid, certainly 2-3 years old asked her why they needed blankets?

"It's too cold in over here. They wouldn't increase the temperature of the AC." she replied.

"I have a blanket." The kid showed it to her.

"What about us? We will feel cold, too, right? So, I asked your dad to get the blankets." she replied.

"Take this, mom." he offered her his blanket.
She asked him to use that blanket, but he resisted. 

Stubborn and loving as he was, the next thing he said was "Dad. please give this to mom. she would feel cold".

And it was so cute, that I smiled. The mother and the son smiled back at me.

The world hasn't really changed. It's only priorities that has changed for some people. Some people turn out to be more important than their mother for some people. BUT REMEMBER, SHE'S THE REASON YOU'RE BREATHING THIS AIR RIGHT NOW. SHE'S THE ONE WHO HAS LOVED YOU, AND WILL CONTINUE TO LOVE YOU DESPITE ALL YOUR FLAWS. SHE'S THE ONLY ONE WHO'D FIND YOU PERFECT. SHE'S YOUR MOTHER. LOVE HER. RESPECT HER. 

DON'T EXPECT. JUST LOVE!

Life was way better when I loved Anushka Sharma, Nikita Singh, Deepika Padukone or even Angelina Jolie because the very instant I fell in love with them, I was well aware of the fact that I am never ever going to have them in my life, for they are like the stars the butterflies strive hard to reach, but die midway. 

And I would never expect them to love me back for they would barely know of the existence of this moronic creature. I would certainly be non-existent for them. But still, loving them would give me the kind of joy that would never diminish. 

So, you see? The formula is simple. When you love someone, never expect them to love you back, and you'd be happy loving them. But the moment you expect someone to love you back, bid a good-bye to your happiness for the sadness is going to beat the hell out of your happiness. So, don't expect. Just love. It's all about giving. And well, if you're getting it in return, then it's amazing, and if you aren't, even then what the heck? Love them not for getting love in return, but for loving them gives you the kind of happiness nothing else in this world does.

LUST THRILLS, BUT KILLS!

Rough night, it was, when I left from the beach after drinking a hot black coffee. Yes. We get coffee at the beach too, and other than being a teetotaler, I was a coffee addict. I accelerated the bike, and reached the main road soon. 

Speeding up the bike, as I set myself for a quick ride home, my eyes fell on a girl across the road, who was wearing a green sweatshirt and black jeans. And she laughed over some joke, she looked beautiful. Her eyes. I couldn't take my eyes off hers. Our gazes met each others, and well, we looked at each other for long. Quite a long time, till I realized that I was about to hit a car ahead of me when he applied his brakes. Just a second late, and I would be at a hospital. I had forgotten that I was riding, and she was walking. 

So, the basic point is think twice before doing something. Lust is always appealing, but dangerous. It can screw your life to such an extent that you'd never want to look into your eyes again. You fall in love, but in lust, you fall to such an extent that standing up on your own feet again can be not only difficult, but impossible at times. 

Lust thrills, but kills.